And a walk with you
is a run from her
as i cling to myself
and let my mind go as
my heart stands still in the middle
of the this war inside
all the while falling
like the guilty tears I cried.
Lost in the moment
created in emptiness
in this solace unresolved
calling for you.
Distorted pains in life-like
transgressions of my own
swallowing pride in the dry mouth
spirited self-centered I've become.
Ignorant infatuations imitating
all that feeds the illness
of this selfishness
as i walk up this mountain to find
the rest of my Jesus and the Savior
of my mind.
Calling unto you and to hold you
is against the will of my mind
and not of my heart
and this is where I beckon you to love me
on this journey by God I'll start.
9/5/07
wj